Anyway, this was the list I made at the time:
I thought about creating bigger goals, but I was afraid to! I realized that I am afraid to dream big because I do not want to fail. I also don't even really know what I want to do most of the time. Sometimes I feel paralyzed because I put so much pressure on myself to make the right decisions in my life--that I make no decisions at all! I have felt pretty stagnant lately. I wonder if anyone else ever feels the same way.
Anyway-- I was happy that I had accomplished or at least started many of my goals! I guess I can check "Start blogging again" on the list--because here I am! :) I did not follow all the way through with some of the goals---I didn't end up planning a date every month, I didn't get rid of clutter in all the rooms, just some of them. I read part of 3 books--so maybe that adds up to reading 1 book. I've never been a very avid reader.
I also noticed that I didn't accomplish one of the most important goals of all---"Find something I'm passionate about, and do it!" The truth is I do not know what I am passionate about. I know--it's kind of depressing! But yet, here I am-with no aim or direction in life, no passions or dreams. Again--I do believe that alot of this comes back to fear! Fear of what other people might think. Fear of trying something and then failing. Fear of doing the wrong things, making the wrong decisions. When I really stop to think about it--fear has been a very crippling thing in my life!
Another thing I would like to note is that two of my accomplishments have actually turned into huge positives in my life-- starting an etsy shop and going to a fitness class. I had an idea to start an etsy shop for so long: to sell iron on appliques for onesies! I remember that when I finally started my shop, I became so discouraged after I made no sales after the first couple of days. this makes me smile now, because I stuck with it and now I have made 550 sales and $3,000 this year! These might not be earth shattering numbers, but I am very proud of myself for taking the risk and seeing it through. The other positive was a fitness class. I was so afraid of going to a class because I didn't want to be bad at it! Ridiculous, I know. Finally I went to a Zumba class, and I have continued to go once or twice a week ever since! I recently tried a turbo kick class- so fun! I have noticed a huge increase in my energy and a boost in my mood since starting the class. It has also helped me accomplish my weight loss goal after the birth of my second child.
I have learned that having goals and taking risks is so worthwhile. I want to have the courage to dream big, take risks, reach higher, try harder. My next task will be to update my "101 Things in 1001 Days" list--adding goals that will challenge me. I do believe it will be another growing experience for me!
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